Finding a Scale

2 01 2009

I’m 23 years old.  When I was a kid, scales did one thing when you stepped on them: the little needle jumped to your weight on the dial.

Now however, you cannot just “step on a scale” – what, you thought it would be that easy?  Now scales require you to tap them first, let it calibrate itself, find your profile, and scroll through your previous weigh-ins all on a display that is faintly reminiscent of the digital watches that were so popular in the 80s. 

When I set out to purchase a scale, I merely went to the nearest Target.  The Target I went to made a critical mistake in merchandise planning, however – they put all their scales on an end cap.  That thing that is right out in the main aisle for everyone to see… and gawk… and stare… yeah.  There was also a few clearance scales on the back of an aisle nearby. 

So rather than imagine what people walking by were potentially thinking (“OMG, she’s so fat, why would *she* buy a scale?”) I looked through the scales on the clearance shelf.  All of a sudden, I was assaulted by choices.  Did I want one that displayed hydration level? Had the ability to track weights of multiple people?  Could tell you what percentage of body fat you had?  Did I want one from the fine people at The Biggest Loser?  Various weight loss programs?  Black? Chrome? Glass? White?

In my state of sensory overloaded panic, I just picked one that was highly overpriced but was made by the makers of my weight loss program, so I figured I would be okay.  Well, when I brought it home, it sure looked fancy – glass, chrome, big digital display.  Then I tried to turn it on.  It had a big sticker that said “Tap here!”  So I tapped.  I rapped.  I poked, and finally I stomped.  Nothing.  For $35, I had a new paperweight for the bathroom.

Then I decided to be smart.  I’d take the scale back, read online reviews, and then select a scale.  That worked out much better.  I went to Walmart (who also has issues with bathroom scale placement – you’ll find it in the hardware section, somewhere between Swede saws and claw hammers) and bought a HealthoMeter scale, white, with body fat and hydration analysis.  So far it works very well – you tap the “Select” button twice and wait for it to tell you to hop on.

And then: the moment.  You gather all your hope and step upward.  For those few seconds when the scale is calculating your weight, the anticipation is such that you don’t dare even breathe.  (Besides, oxygen might make you heavier… right?) 

There are only two outcomes: deep disappointment and euphoria.  Unless, like me so far, you’re not all that invested because you haven’t started the race known as weight loss.  Right now the numbers are just a simple confirmation of what I already know – that my jeans really have been getting smaller, not merely shrinking in the wash.





Getting in the Last Few Cookies

2 01 2009

When I decided that I wanted to lose weight, I told myself it was okay to sneak in a few last treats – almost like I was headed to death row and this was my last meal (“What do you want on your Tombstone?”).  Even though the program I plan to follow allows you to splurge every now and then, or even eat something considered to be “bad” by most diets by giving up the majority of the rest of the day’s food, gone will be the days of getting a bacon, egg, and cheese bagel from McDonalds for breakfast, having Kraft Mac and Cheese for lunch, and mashed potatoes for dinner, with a little grazing thrown in in between.

I’ve made my peace with McDonalds; I made my last bowl of bagels and dip (the two main ingredients are mayonaise and sour cream).  Then came… The Box.

The Box was handed to me by my grandma on Christmas Eve.  She’d made a few extra cookies, it would seem, and given some to everyone.  The Box was small, non-descript, and looked like it could hold at most, a dozen cookies.

Wrong.  Oh so wrong.  The box held sour cream and chocolate chip cookes (with frosting), poppy seed cookies (with frosting), chocolate cherry cookies (with frosting), peanut butter cookies with chocolate Kisses, homemade peanut butter cups, lemon bars, chocolate coconut balls, and cherry chocolate chip bread.  All told, there were about four dozen cookies in The Box.

I put it in the freezer and didn’t give it a glance until the night of Christmas Day.  Then, I went nuts. 

While I’d love to blame The Box, I know the responsibility lies with me that I will be starting out the process of losing weight five pounds heavier.  I could even blame that mysterious concept known as “the holidays”, but really, it’s just me.  I’m hopeful that the fact I can acknowledge that is somehow meaningful, but I guess I’ll find out soon.





Starting a Blog

2 01 2009

“Why on earth would any overweight person want to call attention to their attempt to lose weight?”

That question has been running through my head since I was in junior high, also known as the Land of Judgement.  Talking about trying to lose weight would only point attention at the root of the situation… that that person was fat.  I finally have an answer that does not make me question my sanity – because I’m kind of proud of myself, actually, and because I think it’s good to find the humor in every situation.   Besides, I can acknowledge it.  I’m fat! :)

So as I prepare to jump into the wide world of shedding pounds, I’ve told myself I have the figurative cojones to let anyone, anywhere read about my journey.  I’m not saying that readers are going to be issued a flashlight and given license to probe my deepest secrets.  I’m not going to post my weight every single day like a news bulletin.  However, I am going to be brutally honest with myself and everyone else.

Make no mistake, this is not a place to find advice about dieting, exercise, or losing weight.  I’m the last person who should be giving that (with the exception of fictional Star Wars character, Jabba the Hutt), but just a place to make light of a very serious matter. 

So if you’re looking for a daily laugh or maybe just a way to pass a few minutes, the Broad Broad’s blog just may be it.

Starting Out:
Height: 5′9″
Weight: 247 lbs.
BMI: 36.5